I have been deeply pondering lately, what it IS to be a woman. All parts of it.
My relationships with women. What is like to be a woman in the context of today’s world. In the context of our own families, our mothers, sisters and daughters. Seems like a fitting them for the month of May when we celebrate Beltane and Mother’s Day.
I haven not always celebrated being a woman. Challenges have at times felt insurmountable. It has only been in the past decade where pieces of who I really am have seeped through my consciousness and spoke to me in brand new ways. You begin to see yourself in a different light.
I have been fortunately blessed with a rich circle of true, deeply authentic women in my life. Women who have celebrated my joy as much as talked me down from my sadness. Women who know my soul love despite not seeing me often. They feel it and know it as I know theirs. I have equally been blessed to have a wonderful mother. I appreciate that not everyone has a close relationship with their mother and that mother-child wound can run deep. I treasure that connection as I would a gift, honouring the woman who carried me for 9 months, gave birth to me and held me. And when my mother is gone, I can ask the question “Was I loved”? And I can without hesitation say, yes, I was. And that is enough for me.
The joy of being a parent is at its heart, the purest form of love I have ever experienced. I remember the sacred ecstacy of giving birth to my son, despite the challenging circumstances in my life, and feeling that if my higher power, God, the Universe decided that this was my time to leave, I was at peace. I was at peace because I felt, drank in a closeness, a love far deeper than any defined words for it.
For those of you who have a mother you love, celebrate that closeness.
For those of you who don’t, wrap your sisters, your close friends and matriarchs around you and celebrate that.
For those of you who ARE mothers. Celebrate the incredible miracle you created and how the beautiful pieces of you will go on in their Spirit.
And for those who desire a longing to be a mother, remember that you are loved and never alone in the Universe.
Much love xo